A cigarette or two and Matthew. That’s all I want right now. I out myself in such a downing mood that I am at the point where eyes are starting to get watery.. I just want to be in his arms right now getting cheered up.. I want to be back in tc tonight, not temple terrace.. I don’t want to fall asleep alone again tonight.. I want my boyfriend next to me.. or at least Serenity in his place..